🎶 happy birthday to you…

  
The sun awakens me promptly at 7:59 each morning.And I rise

It’s a new day

However

It’s not just any day

It’s someone’s birthday. 
You know that feeling you get when you wake up and everything feels special and everything feels electric and the day feels warm and fresh and you’re ready for it and you crave it… all because it’s your birthday? 
Yea?

Well today is a birthday

Today holds that perfect birthday feeling.

You see, I’m floating so high up in the sky and so surrounded by serenity that everyday feels like a birthday to me!

My smile is so sincere and my laugh is rooted so deep that nothing can trouble me!

Ooo yes! my aura is so full of energy that each day ends with me bursting at the seams full of blissfulness!
From the moment my eyelids begin to rise, so does my excitement for the emerging day.

I. 

Am. 

WAY. 

UP!

Everyday is my birthday!!!

What a strikingly beautiful feeling to look forward to every morning for it’s new beginnings.
So everyday the sun wakes me at 7:59.

I get up

Make my bed

Maybe I’ll head to the gym; run a little bit

I make a clean breakfast

And then I dive, head first, into the awesomeness that I intend to make that day
Yea, everyday feels like my birthday.

Literally!

Who knew happiness could be this enchanting

Who know happiness could be this simple 

Who knew this type of unapologetic, unaided, intoxicating, mind-blowing happiness could be all mine and DAILY!
So yesterday was a sensational birthday!

Today will be my phenomenal birthday!

Tomorrow will be a divine birthday! 

and I am madly looking forward to every new day and birthday to come…

Gratitude

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I thank God for hearing when I call.
I thank God for listening when I speak.
I thank God for answering the questions I ask, whether I like the answer or not.
I thank God for clarity in situations that onced troubled me.
I thank God for growth.
I thank God for giving me the wisdom to hear Him speak.
I thank God for the relationship that leads me to seek Him.
I thank God for showing me my faults, my flaws, and my wrongdoings.
I thank God for giving me a desire to be better.
I thank God for the epiphanies of life.

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This is healing…

What to say?
Well…
the adjustment is underway.
I’m somewhere in between mourning the lost of love and celebrating the joy of my own rebirth.

Every morning I start my day with a walk accompanied by good music and a protein shake. I set positive intentions for each day, and then commence to follow through.

Each day is filled with thoughts, a sentiment of missing, regret, anger, slight sadness…usual breakup feels. However, each day also brings laughter, an increase in satisfaction that things ended, small mends to my heart, new visions going forward, and less looking back at what was.

This is healing. Although it’s difficult and painful, it’s an adventure and a journey. Moving through pain, at times, seems impossible, but then I make it through to the other side of the moment, and exhale.

I welcome the discomfort; it means I’m outgrowing this scarred skin.
I welcome the pain; it means I still have the ability to feel.
I welcome the journey; I’ll be better once I reach the end.

I look forward to the beauty that is to come…

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Eat!!!

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i haven’t had an appetite in four weeks. I’ve lost fifteen pounds in a month, doing absolutely nothing. I’ve been eating once a day, if I remember to. When I’m stressed or sad, my appetite goes out the window.  But tonight, at 1:54am, I got out of my bed, went to my kitchen, and made a sandwich. I WAS STARVING!!

And I’m  so glad! I want to lose weight, but I want it to be with sweat and work and an increase in muscle and endurance…  Not from being sick over my ex girlfriend.

So, I hope I gain a little weight back. Then I want to lose it again. gain some muscles. Be able to do some chin-ups. Be able to run.

I’m eating tonight. I’m glad.

3 Different Hearts

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I like having my heart.
I can be cold. I can be distant. I’m really good at playing the field.
I can be guarded. I can be rude. I can be completely hands off it.
I have a heart though, and it’s big and wide and open.
I like having my heart.

I’ve been in love exactly two times.
(three, if you include my love for self)
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