🎶 happy birthday to you…

  
The sun awakens me promptly at 7:59 each morning.And I rise

It’s a new day

However

It’s not just any day

It’s someone’s birthday. 
You know that feeling you get when you wake up and everything feels special and everything feels electric and the day feels warm and fresh and you’re ready for it and you crave it… all because it’s your birthday? 
Yea?

Well today is a birthday

Today holds that perfect birthday feeling.

You see, I’m floating so high up in the sky and so surrounded by serenity that everyday feels like a birthday to me!

My smile is so sincere and my laugh is rooted so deep that nothing can trouble me!

Ooo yes! my aura is so full of energy that each day ends with me bursting at the seams full of blissfulness!
From the moment my eyelids begin to rise, so does my excitement for the emerging day.

I. 

Am. 

WAY. 

UP!

Everyday is my birthday!!!

What a strikingly beautiful feeling to look forward to every morning for it’s new beginnings.
So everyday the sun wakes me at 7:59.

I get up

Make my bed

Maybe I’ll head to the gym; run a little bit

I make a clean breakfast

And then I dive, head first, into the awesomeness that I intend to make that day
Yea, everyday feels like my birthday.

Literally!

Who knew happiness could be this enchanting

Who know happiness could be this simple 

Who knew this type of unapologetic, unaided, intoxicating, mind-blowing happiness could be all mine and DAILY!
So yesterday was a sensational birthday!

Today will be my phenomenal birthday!

Tomorrow will be a divine birthday! 

and I am madly looking forward to every new day and birthday to come…

And the moral of the story is….

The moment you realize you’ve been doing it wrong this entire time…

For a few of months, I’ve been trying to fall out of love. I unexpectedly fell head over heels in love with a woman whom I never even wanted to like, and then she broke my heart. Since then, every day my goal is to make it through the day and somehow magically love her less and less until one day I realize I no longer love her at all.

That’s how it’s been with my exes. I grieve the loss of them for a while and then one day it just hits me; I’m over them. The “love” is gone, I move on, and never even think about looking back. So I’ve been waiting on the “never looking back” part this entire time.

However, there’s one key difference between my other exes and this one. Continue reading

I’ve been avoiding this…

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I’ve been avoiding writing. I’ve been inclined to write but have purposely decided countless times to distract myself instead. I didn’t want to write, because I didn’t want to write about my heartbreak and I didn’t want anyone to know I was still heartbroken. Then I read my last post and it seemed hypocritical of me not to write. So this is what came out…. Continue reading

Why

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I write to purge.
Writing gives me an outlet to say the words my lips dare not touch.
I write to release. I write so that I can be my own sounding board; so that the page can be a set of ears to listen to my thoughts.
I write to calm the storms that swirl and explode in my mind and in my spirit. To sift through all the many jumbled up and confused emotions inside of me, and to bring order and peace to my psyche.
I write as a way to hug myself when I’m lonely and to encourage myself when it’s only me.
I write to dialogue with the spirit of my God, and the spirits of those who came before me, and with the spirits of my present sisters worldwide.
I write to purge.

And then I share. Continue reading