🎶 happy birthday to you…

  
The sun awakens me promptly at 7:59 each morning.And I rise

It’s a new day

However

It’s not just any day

It’s someone’s birthday. 
You know that feeling you get when you wake up and everything feels special and everything feels electric and the day feels warm and fresh and you’re ready for it and you crave it… all because it’s your birthday? 
Yea?

Well today is a birthday

Today holds that perfect birthday feeling.

You see, I’m floating so high up in the sky and so surrounded by serenity that everyday feels like a birthday to me!

My smile is so sincere and my laugh is rooted so deep that nothing can trouble me!

Ooo yes! my aura is so full of energy that each day ends with me bursting at the seams full of blissfulness!
From the moment my eyelids begin to rise, so does my excitement for the emerging day.

I. 

Am. 

WAY. 

UP!

Everyday is my birthday!!!

What a strikingly beautiful feeling to look forward to every morning for it’s new beginnings.
So everyday the sun wakes me at 7:59.

I get up

Make my bed

Maybe I’ll head to the gym; run a little bit

I make a clean breakfast

And then I dive, head first, into the awesomeness that I intend to make that day
Yea, everyday feels like my birthday.

Literally!

Who knew happiness could be this enchanting

Who know happiness could be this simple 

Who knew this type of unapologetic, unaided, intoxicating, mind-blowing happiness could be all mine and DAILY!
So yesterday was a sensational birthday!

Today will be my phenomenal birthday!

Tomorrow will be a divine birthday! 

and I am madly looking forward to every new day and birthday to come…

Well, I’m going to be taking a break from blogging for a little while. I’m excited to say I’m writing a book. I’ll be focusing my energy into that journey. Stay tuned and wish me luck!!!

Gratitude

I thank God for hearing when I call.
I thank God for listening when I speak.
I thank God for answering the questions I ask, whether I like the answer or not.
I thank God for clarity in situations that onced troubled me.
I thank God for growth.
I thank God for giving me the wisdom to hear Him speak.
I thank God for the relationship that leads me to seek Him.
I thank God for showing me my faults, my flaws, and my wrongdoings.
I thank God for giving me a desire to be better.
I thank God for the epiphanies of life.

I’ve been struggling with sadness and grief and anger.

Let’s Talk

Let’s talk about beauty.

Sure, beauty can be defined by body shape, skin complexion, hair texture.
Beauty can come to life in vibrant colored eyes.
It can be enhanced by make up, accessories, well fitting clothes.
Beauty can be lips, legs, arms, hands, and waistlines.
I’ve seen and appreciated lots of beauty.

Do you know what else is beautiful?

Happiness

Happiness is…

… long walks
… sunshine
… travel
… smiling at strangers… yea, I said it.
… selflessness
… colors
… cocoa brown skin
… teal oceans
… silver hair
… white sheets
… green salads… SORRY, I misspelled “trees”

Why

I write to purge.
Writing gives me an outlet to say the words my lips dare not touch.
I write to release. I write so that I can be my own sounding board; so that the page can be a set of ears to listen to my thoughts.
I write to calm the storms that swirl and explode in my mind and in my spirit. To sift through all the many jumbled up and confused emotions inside of me, and to bring order and peace to my psyche.
I write as a way to hug myself when I’m lonely and to encourage myself when it’s only me.
I write to dialogue with the spirit of my God, and the spirits of those who came before me, and with the spirits of my present sisters worldwide.
I write to purge.

And then I share.

without dreams

Without Dreams
We reach nothing.
Without Love
We feel nothing.
Without God
We are nothing.

Good Morning.

This is healing…

What to say?
Well…
the adjustment is underway.
I’m somewhere in between mourning the lost of love and celebrating the joy of my own rebirth.

Every morning I start my day with a walk accompanied by good music and a protein shake. I set positive intentions for each day, and then commence to follow through.

Each day is filled with thoughts, a sentiment of missing, regret, anger, slight sadness…usual breakup feels. However, each day also brings laughter, an increase in satisfaction that things ended, small mends to my heart, new visions going forward, and less looking back at what was.

This is healing. Although it’s difficult and painful, it’s an adventure and a journey. Moving through pain, at times, seems impossible, but then I make it through to the other side of the moment, and exhale.

I welcome the discomfort; it means I’m outgrowing this scarred skin.
I welcome the pain; it means I still have the ability to feel.
I welcome the journey; I’ll be better once I reach the end.

I look forward to the beauty that is to come…

little muse

another from the vault…

June 17, 2010
you’re my muse.
i don’t know why.
when I look at you my vision sparks
my mind flutters and then flies
i stray from mundane and right.
i indulge in insane and fright.
my mind swims and floats in air full of rhymes, colors, whims
hearing you name

grass begins to flow
waters grow
the wind shines with rays
the sun’s breeze blows like music

because you’re my muse
within you everything is new.
nothing ever as it has been
My creativity is you.

3 Different Hearts

I like having my heart.
I can be cold. I can be distant. I’m really good at playing the field.
I can be guarded. I can be rude. I can be completely hands off it.
I have a heart though, and it’s big and wide and open.
I like having my heart.

I’ve been in love exactly two times.
(three, if you include my love for self)
My first love, well, her heart was… Complicated